Sooooo.. I messaged my friend last. I didn't told her what happened to me while I've been gone for a while, but yeah, I told her that I am doing OK. Not OK OK , but I'm better now than before. I just don't want her to get worried about me, so I decided to have a tid bit courage to do messaged her, but I still don't have the courage to tell her what I was thinking when I decided to just be gone and never show up again back then. I miss her... That's all I can say. I already poured out my emotions on my other close friend so when I was messaging her I had already managed my train wreck of emotions . I'm just glad she's OK on where she is now.